Chatted with somebody last night.
Somebody asked me if I'm going on Friday and that somebody might not be able to make it cos of some very funny reason.
Shan't mention it.
Somehow, our conversation shortened.
It was no longer like the past.
The "never ending topics to chat" days no longer exists.
It used to last for hours, from maybe 8pm to 2am.
Now, it's even hard to maintain the conversation for 30mins, needless to say for hours.
Gap widens.
What we said are restricted to "haha", "lol", "ok", "ya".
It's boring. Seriously.
I thought I should be happy.
Because time allowed my feelings to fade. (:
But, I didn't felt so.
Somehow, I felt sad.
心里浮現了淡淡的哀傷。
Cos I no longer can bring back the past, which used to be so happy.
I no longer can make somebody say, "Don't offline yet leh. I very sian. Chat with me for awhile more." when I was already 1 going to 2am
Now, I just feel that it's better for us to end the conversation earlier than constantly trying to make ourselves type those "haha" and "lol", when the conversation is NOT a single bit funny.
I don't know why.
I should be overjoy! I should be glad that I finally did it. Finally, I felt that I no longer can talk with somebody.
但是，不知道为什么，心里就是觉得很不舒服。
我是放得下的。我知道。
可是为什么我还是怎样都不能释怀呢？
Somebody一点也不重要了。真的。我甚至快忘了somebody长成什么样了。
可是，为什么我还是那么在乎？
我可不是一个一直永远等待的大笨蛋啊！
而且，像我这样，长得这副德性，还是不要吓坏别人比较好。
天啊！太荒唐了！我在干嘛啊！
朋友，朋友，是朋友啦！
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